Chelsea's Tail just completed it's first performance tonight at my old college. Unfortunately we did not perform any original songs and the event was not really the right platform for crowd participation. It was quite an experience I have to say. I've performed musical gigs several times before without any fear or nervousness yet both feelings were present in me during today's act.
After we completed the first song, it took the crowd three whole seconds to respond in applause to the song; i was thinking that the delay was either because they did not approve or were stunned. I hope that it's the latter.
I've realized recently that I tend to make situations very awkward. Several times this week I've been finding myself if conversations that commonly contain awkward periods of silence. These pauses are followed by a hot feeling that makes fainting very plausible. During those pauses, for some reason, I quickly attempt to kill the silence by starting a new topic or defaulting to shrugging my shoulders while saying: "I don't know." This shrug action may sometimes work for the first few times but later on it just gets pathetic and makes the interlocutors even more uncomfortable. I do not recommend performing the "shrug and comment;" it makes things worse! Thursday's dinner was the most awkward dinner I've experienced in a long time. I shared a meal with a couple of my classmates after a study session and it was torturous. I'll save the story for my next entry. I'm going to sleep now.